Self discovery is the first step to the path of enlightenment. As I traverse this route, I can surpass and see myself beyond one life. As life stands now, I want to actually look into my soul and discover that I am, why I’m how I am and what’s the best goal of my life in the world. Self discovery: Who I am & Why I am the Way I’m?
Normally it’s a really tough question to answer in case you haven’t looked inside the huge world that exists in you. But once we begin the process of looking inside we begin discovering our true self. Over time, I’ve seen that there was consistently a”pattern” in the series of events which has unfolded in my life. Further each event has got connected to earn a whole. By taking a look at the series of events and analyzing them in the depths of my inner self I’ve realized that I am moving forward in the last journey of my life in the world. There’s a deep understanding of the past, the present and the future.
Coming to observe myself from close quarters from several angles, I have discovered that I have high energy levels geared towards a”certain direction” as reflected by my own abilities. I’ve been consistently using these abilities in this life to cover the karmic debts accumulated over several life times. Talking of the abilities, I’ve found myself tremendously disposed towards a path of constantly traversing a new direction in my life. This has always manifested in my professional in addition to personal life. In my professional life I have always found myself working towards new scientific frontiers for the betterment of Humanity.
I’ve developed an uncanny ability to unearth the hidden and unite them to start a new direction of scientific thought and study. This new leadership then manifests in the external environment for the betterment of humankind. I’ve discovered that I have a rather significant quantity of manly energy pushing me for activity every now and then. These activities are original, creative and generative in character and the genesis of all of these activities lie in the awakening of the female principle in the depths of my spirit. I am consciously now conscious of the universal fact that I want to balance the masculine and the feminine principles that are so much part of me.
Only this can help me to traverse a course of original action predicated on creative and generative change. I’ve understood the fact that the will, the grit and the determination for my activity comes in the masculine principle and the seed for this particular activity that’s creativity and the ability to create something new for the benefit of humanity comes from the female principle. I’ve understood that the masculine principle with no advice and the blessing of the female becomes arrogant, selfish and a war monger as represented by Mars.
What does this mean?
This uncontrolled manifestation of the masculine principle is the reason behind the total chaos, mess and selfish streak in humanity that we are seeing in the world today. On the other hand the divine feminine touch makes Mars smart, thoughtful, caring, creative and generative in character. Then the war waged by Mars becomes purposeful in nature and the devastation is followed by generative and creative actions. This is the spiritual war for a new order and a new start. The awareness and the development of my entire relies on the creative and generative energy of the female principle have led to an extraordinary affinity towards”Womanhood” and the female principle.
My life is profoundly affected by the female and I have understood I cannot exist as an awakened being with this female energy manifestation. All my activities based on the masculine principle are blessed and guided with the creative, generative and constructive energy of the female. It’s my soul’s cry to always traverse a course of first action with the worship of “Womanhood” and also the female in all the planes of existence.
I also have understood the art, the science, the dancing, the music, the style, the character, the bliss of gender and whatever involves creativity and creation are the manifestations of the female principle and they’re vital for a balanced, healthy and purposeful life that transcends itself. Looking things in real depth, I’ve understood that I’ve got a debt to repay from my previous life. Though whatever positive deeds I have to have done in my previous life, I had to take birth in this world again using specific Karmic debts. The Karmic debts that needs to be paid back in this life includes overcoming fear, overcoming self interest, beating the misuse of personal liberty and beating the callous approach I’d had towards Womanhood in my previous life.
Keep in mind
So the above self-analysis yells answers as to why I’m how I am? The answers have become clearer as I’ve examined the pattern from the”chain of events” in my previous based on that I could understand the ultimate goal of my life. This has resulted in development of a vision and construction of series of action steps to bridge the gap between the current reality and the vision. As I can get replies for the purpose of my life I’m becoming more and more adventuresome in my life span. I’m slowly becoming aware of the negative masculine energies in me symbolized by fear, anger, anger, jealousy, unabashed individualism and feelings & attachment based on self interest. Further I am attempting to transcend the “negative manly” by devoting everything I do to Goddess Kali.
I’m overcoming the abuse of freedom from my past life by adopting constructive freedom in my life based on creative and generative action whereby whatever I do is committed for the benefit of humanity. I’ve understood that constructive liberty is always creative and generative in character rather than regressive. I also have understood quite clearly that I need to dedicate this life completely towards the worship of”womanhood” and the female represented by Goddess Kali. Worship of womanhood and the female in every plane that’s physical, emotional, psychological, intellectual and the spiritual with a goal of establishing a balance between the feminine and the masculine at each level that’s the conscious, subconscious and super conscious levels of my inner universe and the outside universe is how I need to settle my debt and continue towards my ultimate aim of life that’s enlightenment and salvation.
what’s the ultimate goal of my life in the world? From the above self-study, it’s apparent that my life is moving towards a path that’s taking me towards achieving salvation and enlightenment and following total merger with Goddess Kali at the end of the lifetime. I need to continuously move towards a new direction in my life revealing newer path to humankind with path-breaking Scientific & Management insights. To achieve this I want to move in pursuit of generative change and devote all of my work to Goddess Kali. I Must follow the path of Karma and dedicate all of the fruits of this Karma to Goddess Kali. I’m trained in the “fields” of life sciences and direction and I must use these abilities towards “Generative Biomedical Drug Discovery” for the improvement and healing of the humankind.
My professional life is going to be devoted to achieving these aims fairly, honestly and through the course of truth. So it’s a very clear path that I have in front of me to get the purpose of Goddess Kali and attain enlightenment and salvation. I want to take up action with the support of manly principle for path breaking discovery in medical sciences and this needs to be accomplished using the creative and generative forces of womanhood and the female principle. On the other hand my life is also committed in the service of womanhood in all planes. I must work towards the support of womanhood in every facet of my life in order to bring a balance between the feminine and the masculine principles of nature.
Let’s understand it
Further I want to transmit the same “understanding and practice” to others that are willingly ready to follow this path of supreme truth of the Mother Nature and the world. Action based on self discovery should begin from within, then proceed towards the immediate environment, then expand into the society, nation and the world. My goal is to begin favorably to work in my inner self and then to use the womenfolk in my immediate life which is my mom, my sister, my relatives, my friends, my future wife and my children when they arrive. I will see that I’m of positive support to all of them to achieve their best in their life without being intrusive in their day to day living. I will see that I inspire my future wife in most positive ways to achieve her best in her life. Further we will work together to accomplish our common aim of salvation and enlightenment.
I know she’s going to be a gifted and highly educated women and she’ll be an active partner in achieving our shared objectives and purpose of life. I will extend help towards her in every way possible and seek her busy aid in my affairs as needed. I will stand by her”at the thick & thin of life’s journey” because we must accomplish our ultimate goal in this life together. This is going to be a life where the two people will jointly discharge all our duties and obligations towards our loved ones and work towards achieving our ultimate aim of life. As I work in my inner self and my immediate environment, I will continue to expand in the wider external world.
The work towards this will be initiated by functioning in the society for equal participation of “girls in all aspects of life”. Project-9 is going to be revolutionary and path-breaking business that will help be the sign of women’s power in cutting edge medical research. This business will be actively connected with the reason behind girl child education with a vision of raising a generation of new people capable of living a life in perfect sync with nature. More than this I will also get into private counseling to inspire humanity to live a fuller life by channelizing and balancing the feminine & masculine principles that lie concealed in our inner self.
I will communicate to society in this respect sharing all adventures that I profit from my private search of the universal truth. I will build upon this as a “way of life” as my life progresses forward. I will see that I spark the fighting spirit in women by sharing my practical experiences. I will see that I shall campaign for equal opportunity concept from the present structures of this society whether it’s the social, economic, cultural or religious structures of this society. I will fight tooth and nail against manipulations & harassments against womanhood. This is self discovery for me. I will observe that I practice what I have written previously with the energetic comprehension of my conscious, subconscious and super conscious mind. Let me “walk the talk” and reveal “Womanhood” & “humanity” a new leadership, a new route as desired by the will of Goddess Kali.